There's no denying that i still fond you.

but you're probably reading a book under a tree somewhere in my mind.

and you've just finished you're chapter of me.

I guess thats whats left of my feelings that i feel in this song.

and what i learned here is that the more u accept the less of the pain.

im gonna close the book and i want to leave it that way.

goodnight

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Amazing.

Yesterday I had an amazing day.
It was a mixture of surreal feeling, well-timed event and nostalgic memory recall.

well, I had an outing with this one cousin of mine (Ainaa).
She's a very sweet person and a girl who will forever remain important to me
and I hadn't seen her since ages coz she lives far away in Penang so its hard to keep in touch in her.

But we managed to hold a date together and we talked like a crazy person catching up with all those lost months and it felt like we haven't gone away one sec :)

I was stunned for a sec with numerous memories I had with her as kids. We were happy and talked for hours on the phone forgetting our similar problems at home.
With her wearing a purple tudung creatively, I was determined to make her happy.

We talked loads of stuff while on these special occasions as we dont see each other often. As I type this down in cherishing her ( and deep down pin-pointing which special people resides in my heart), it occur to me that not only have we changed physically but we also grew up.

And in growing up means that...well, I dont know any terms for it but I can roughly say that while that we're far away, I will have backup. I do have someone who knows me inside out and cares for me.

Oh, I also ran to two of my favaourite people while we went to the movies. But let me get to that later ;)

let me close this note with this. I had an amazing day with you. Im no fortune teller nor i am a psychic mind reader. I dont read minds but from the way you react I saw u had a good time.. at least...haha..

Cheers to the future and lets laugh and smile together as great cousins and closest best-friends!

Ikhwan

Close your eyes.

Everyday,
i imagine myself what kind of girl is for me.
what kind of person would understand me.

Is she painting beautiful pictures in upper state LA?
or is she running chasing bad men in New york?
I wonder what kind of a person is she?

Everywhere i turn i see girls girls girls.
But none of them are the same.
Where is she i begin to wonder?
The wonder woman who can save my life.

Empty vases begins to fill my heart
everytime i see u mention his name.
I couldn't bear the thought
of him mistreating you like that.

I know, everytime i play the guitar. I don't have the charm of Bruno Mars.
But every word that i try to rhyme.
I try to emulate Jesse Mccartney.

coz whenever i turn to you girl,
you greet me with that shiny smile :)
So please don't wonder again
coz im clark kent. Im gonna make u go wild!

Yo baby,
have u ever wonder who misses you every moment of the day.
have u tried to twist and turn in worry everytime someone messes with his missus?
Im so grateful that i have u in my arms.
The perfect fit you and me make
oh wait, im only dreamin this wide awake.

Whenever i turn to you baby girl,
you gave me that perfect smile.
Im gonna make u wonder again,
'why haven't i meet someone like you sooner!'

September 2030.

This is just a small message to you.
In accordance to our upcoming anniversary.

I know this might sound crazy.
Hell, this even feels weird typing this.
But i just have this feeling,
and i want to share and let you know.

I feel very tingly inside.
Everytime i remember the first time i fell for you.

You were with me in college.
But you were so far away from me.
I feel nerveous everytime you're near me.
You and you're cute little hairband which i come to know and love.

Do you remember it?
Did you have the same feeling as i did?

But you were with another guy.
And he wasn't Mr Gentleman either.
I couldn't come to terms with the fact,
that my love is being abuse everyday.

I had to win you over.
I had to save you.
And i did, i had the scars to prove it.
Then you came.

You said; " i couldn't stand seeing you hurt"
I said; " i did it for you".

But seriously,
This does look cheezy.
But baby i knew you were the one for me.
You had that honest smile.
And i just wanna see you smile.

happy anniversary darling.

She buy her own clothes.

She rides 'round town in a black Range Rover.

Shades on, walkin' round pavilion wearin' that big swagger.

High maintainence written all over.

But let me share you a secret.

Share this only between you and me.

She hasn't always been like this.

She always wears a warm sunshine smile in class.

With her long smooth hair and green top.

I guess it was a suprise,

A suprise to everyone that she isn't who we all thought she is.

One was cheating on the other while on the phone with the fugly duckling,
She was only seeking a peaceful life without another he seeks fucking.
The kid be sensitive pour his soul writin' on this pen.
Seekin' to know which,
direction is switchin or flippin' as he only wanted to be livin' as who he really is.

For My Darling~

Promise me one thing,baby.
When you read this line.
Promise me you'll do this without asking me why.
For when my birthday comes around,
I wanna take you away from town.
To that secret garden down by the valley beside the lake,
And i just wanna spent the day kissing you.
'Coz all i ever wanted is to stare at you with those beautiful flowers in your hair.

All i could ever ask for my birthday.
All i could ask to complete my day,
which i am thankful everyday.
is you.

I know, i may sound crazy.
But i just can't breathe this last few days.
These flashes of me being with you keeps coming.
I can literally see us holding hands strolling through the beach happily and i put
that picture perfect moment in our bedroom wall..

Pretend

i like cartoons, always look at old photos(reminiscing the past) , have those silly giggles and have childish dreams.Sometimes people even call me childish.Never taking life seriously. Pretending he can be responsible free.Being childish means being a kid even as a grown up but being childish also means holding out to the past which defines us who we are as individuals. This is who i am.

..................................................................

Can we pretend that airplanes in the night sky are like shooting stars? i could really use a wish right now..

Blue Sky

been sleeping the whole day, dreaming bout blue sky and soft wind blowing against me. thanks to you dear for chasing that bad nightmare away. As the crickets softly sings away, i notice as the sun sets over the horizon, reality sinks back in as im all alone in my bed. Am i still dreamin coz your not here darling. If only you can feel what im feeling..

Trust

Trust is like a seed. you plant it carefully and shower them with water. then watch it as it grows and grows to a beautiful flower. A symbol of synonymy to any relationship..