Well, its been well past 24 hours since the breakup occurred.
and quite bluntly, a void is there. At this point a lot of things goes through my mind.

'wow, i feel depressed and compressed inside because there's no more room/person that i can share my daily grief,tears and joy' 'why did she pulled the trigger?' 'i dont think she wanted too, i think its high possibly outside interference' 'should i confront her?'

the last question keeps ringing in my head, the breakup occurred over whatsapp message.
she requested to have a civilized, decent conversation to give me the news but i evade the inevitable. Having pressured from people around her or maybe even from her own innerself (from my analysis), she quickly announce 'from the recent events that occurred, this has to stop and i realized that i have to let go' is it a crypted message? maybe its in my head.

But the fact is, I haven't spoken to her in what felt like years so i wouldn't have any clue what really happen. She maybe had her hand forcefully played on her behalf with she quite honestly wouldn't want and now she's dying alone.

Honey, I miss my pet. The way we had our moment then you disappear for months and then coming back to love me intrigues me. Im convinced that you still have that fire and desire in you for us when you replied that whatsapp message over the weekend but something happened so you had to keep it low and tell me what you said.

we will be together. you will return to me.

dont ever forget i know you.im the only person that knows your beating heart. with monica's angel of mine playing in the back, you only have the drive and desire for me no matter how far you run from me, deep down late at night you desire for me. only